Welcome Nicole Leiann

Elizabeth,

Thinking of you today as I posted to the family blog about Nicole's birth, how I know you would love her. You so love babies! She is beautiful, she was born on July 17th, to Aunt T and Uncle Mike. Her poor little head was bruised and scrapped up due to the suction the doctors had to use to get her out but it is healing fast. They have found that she has another small problem, her vaginal area has closed with some tissue and now they must go to a urologist to see if medication or a small surgical procedure must be done. We are all praying for a good outcome. I wish you could see and hold her, maybe one day! For now I will post a picture here and will post others as she grows so that you will see them one day. I hope all is good with you, I love you and pray for you often! Miss you lots!!

Love,

Mom

Remembering DC

Dear Elizabeth,

Thinking of you today as I remembered what we were doing three years ago. Thinking of the trip to Washington DC and the parade, watching you and Ben with the band, coming down Constitution Avenue between the White House and the Washington Monument. I was so proud of both of you and all the kids that day. I know even then we were having problems but I still loved you so much and was beaming from ear to ear. My favorite picture is the one Adam took of you as you passed the Washington Monument. I was even more proud of you when the news cast used that one in their broadcast!

As we were playing games on the 4th, you were on my mind and I wish you could have been with us to enjoy the laughter. J, Brittany and Ben were here and we were having such a great time, there was just one big hole, YOU!

I hope you are happy right now and safe. I hope that when you read this you will know that I do love you and I miss you. I wish we did not have to go through this time but I know that in the long run it will help. I hope and pray it will strengthen our bond as Mother and Daughter. I love you!! God Bless and Keep you Always!!

Love,

Mom

James Graduation Party

Dear Elizabeth,

As Dad and I are preparing for J's graduation party tomorrow, I wish you were here. It won't be the same without you! Graduations should be celebrated with all the family. We are also going to be missing Aunt T, Uncle Mike, their kids and Grandpa, but more than anyone, YOU! I wish we could work all the problems out so that you could feel comfortable to be with us. Nothing matters more in this world than the love of your family. I will make sure I take pictures tomorrow and post some on here to share with you and of course there will be lots on facebook. Just remember, I love you always!!

Love,

Mom

First Letter to You

Dear Elizabeth,

Dad and I wanted to create this blog to share our thoughts with you during this time that we are apart from you. We hope one day you will find this or that we will be able to share this with you so that you can see the pain and love that we went through. We also wanted to document some of the things you missed out on being a part of, so that you might feel like you were there.

Let's start with this last weekend, we wish you could have been with us for James graduation from College America. He graduated Magna Cum Laude and was inducted into Alpha Beta Kappa Honor Society. We also got to meet Brittany's parents, Diane and Mike for the first time. They seem like very nice people. Here is a picture of us taken in front of Nanny and Papaw's house, so that you can see how handsome you brother looked in his cap and gown.




We also missed sharing Father's day with you, we made enchiladas and played cards with James, Brittany and Ben. What a fun day it was, even though it rained.

We miss you so much, it is not the same without you here to share in all the family activities. There is always a hole in our lives. The smiles in the photos do not show the pain that we all feel. I think of you every day, I can't help it, I walk by your picture all the time. I can't open my wallet that I don't see your photo. I can't walk down one hallway or the other in the house that I don't see a photo of you. There is not a day that goes by that I don't have a tear in my eye that is for you! My heart hurts all the time, you are my daughter and I love you!! No matter what has been said or what has been done, I will ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!!

Love,

Mom